More and more, I'm beginning to think that we need a miracle for this event to actually go on. How did things come to this? It started out quite alright. What happened in between? I guess there is no point in pointing fingers now. After all, that is not going to change anything anyway. I don't really know what to do anymore. Is everything that we did, all that we've put in the past few months, going to waste now? What is the point in persisting in something that is not meant to happen in the first place? But this isn't just about me isn't it? I mean, everyone in the group is involved and they have done a lot as well. I hate to see all their efforts go down the drain as well. Maybe I shouldn't have spent so much time and effort on this in the first place. But then again, I have no idea what will happened in future. At least I know that I have tried my best. Or have I? There seemed to be so many things that I could have done better, on hindsight. On hindsight, things always seemed clearer. I guess I should have no regrets. I did learn quite a lot from this whole experience. Maybe I shouldn't have sent the email to him. Now, it seemed like such a stupid thing to do. Oh well, I just hoped that he won't read too much into it.
