Handbags

I got 4 handbags as birthday presents this year. Haha..did my friends actually think that I'm in need of handbags so much?? But then again, one can never have too many handbags. =)

I'm into my second month of work life now, and still getting used to it. Don't know why but I'm starting to miss my school life. Maybe it's because school term is supposed to start last week, if I had chosen to continue studying. Life always seemed to be such a dilemma. I remembered that just 8 months ago, I was delibrating on whether I should graduate or to continue into my fourth year. I guess I would never know if I had made the right decision, but it's too late for regrets now.

Lord, feeling really tired at times. When can I go home to You?

Update

It's been quite a while since the last time I've updated. So much so that I almost forgot my password =P

Spent national day with SJ and Ting. SJ and I wanted to watch "The Lakehouse" initially but unfortunately all the tickets were sold out. So we ended up shopping instead while waiting for Ting to arrive.

Really glad that Ting is back from Denmark. 6 weeks really passed by pretty quick. And I've already being working for close to 2 months.

Also 'celebrated' my 22nd birthday in a different way this year. With the whole company. Well, I don't wish to elaborate here. If you want to know, just ask me k. Seemed not so long ago that I just celebrated my 21st birthday, and now I'm already 22. Well, whatever it is, I just want to say a big 'thank you' to everyone for the birthday wishes and gifts.

1 week

It's been a while since I've blogged. Indeed, it has been a rather hectic week and I guess I'm still getting used to the work and everything. Well, at least there are things to do now.

Anyway, just the other day as I was taking the mrt back from work, I happened to see an advert on the train. It was on the Singapore Food Festival 2006. Heez, it has already been one year. Somehow, looking at that brought back some memories. Even the logo still looks the same. Yet I know that things have changed. Guess there's no point looking at the past when I should be looking at the future instead.

Just beginning

Monday will be another beginning again. And as always, I'm filled with mixed feelings. But that aside, I wished to blog about something else today.

'Man looks at the external appearance but the Lord looks at the heart'

I guess this is a truth that I knew a long time ago, just that it re-surfaces time and again. It is so easy to see things on the surface. Yet after a while, what you feel inside will reflect on your behaviour. After all, how long can we put on the pretense? Will I, filled with enthusiasm now, be like that one or two years down the road as well? Have I been too naive, thinking that things are just as what they appeared to be? Or am I reading too much into some things?

But maybe I don't care anyway. At the end, what is it that really matters? I supposed we have to think beyond long term. And if we have eternity set in our hearts, what is all these anymore?

Felt a little bored at work today. Heez...really hoped things will improve in the days to come. After all, it's only the first day.

It is just so easy to dismiss him, or to push aside the matter altogether. Thinking that we don't need him or that we can always go to him in our times of need when we need him, if we need him. Psalm 14 reflected these sentiments perfectly.


Psalm 14

The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good.

The LORD looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were any that did understand, and seek God.

They are all gone aside, they are all together become filthy: there is none that doeth good, no, not one.

Have all the workers of iniquity no knowledge? who eat up my people as they eat bread, and call not upon the LORD.

There were they in great fear: for God is in the generation of the righteous.

Ye have shamed the counsel of the poor, because the LORD is his refuge.

Oh that the salvation of Israel were come out of Zion! when the LORD bringeth back the captivity of his people, Jacob shall rejoice, and Israel shall be glad.



One day every knee will bow down and every tongue will confess that you are God. But will it be too late? Lord, please have mercy and open their eyes...

The more they push...the closer I'll get...

Letting go? Moving on?

I don't really know what to make of this anymore. I kept telling myself that I should give this another chance. Maybe if I put in more effort, maybe if I talk to them more, maybe if I could love them more...So many maybes. Maybe I should just forget about it. I guess it was over a long time ago. I was just unwilling to let go, because I know that once I do, I'll need to move out of my comfort zone. Not that my current one is that comfortable anyway. But it sure beats finding and meeting new people all over again. Maybe I'm more afraid that wherever I go, I'll realised that people are all the same. Another maybe.

But what is the point of holding on to something that will lead to nothing in the end? The longer I stay, the less willing I will be to eventually move on. Two years is a long enough time to get to know someone. Yet how much do I know about them and how much do they know about me? Sometimes, time really isn't a good indicator of how well you know a person.

Actually I was thinking of what to do at the start of the week, but what happened made me move one step closer to my eventual decision. I mean, it's not even about what they are going to watch. If they cared even a little about what I feel, couldn't they just suggest another show? But no, they went ahead with their initial decision.

I pray that there'll be something for me to stay for,
that maybe there's a reason for insisting on watching it,
but these actions are just pushing me further away....

Musical

Yesterday evening, I watched a musical with Ting and Jo at the University Cultural Centre, complimentary of NUS since it was part of the centennial celebrations. Come to think of it, throughout my three years in NUS, that was the first time that I watched a musical at the UCC. Wondering when it will be the next time that we'll be able to do that again.

The musical, "Man of Letters", was pretty nice. Liked the songs and the acting. It's about a love story, set in Singapore during the 1950s-60s. Think they'll be showing til Sunday, so if any of you are free, maybe can go over to watch it too.

Retreat and dinner

I had a rather packed Vesak day weekend, with the teacher's retreat yesterday and the 17-up fellowship dinner this evening. Maybe will start with the teacher's retreat first. I felt that it was really good because not only did we learn more on how to teach the children and get their attention, we also got to know each other better. The teaching by Priscilla was useful as well and even though it was only a one-day retreat, I was glad that I had gone for it. And not to mention that the food was also very scrumptious.

For most of the group and workshop sessions, we sat according to the age groups that we are teaching so that we can share and learn from each other. As we sat there sharing with each other, I started thinking about how it is a blessing to be teaching alongside dedicated teachers like them. Perhaps the people that you're working with really does make a difference after all.

Another Vesak day. A year had passed.