What am I good at? Can I not bother about anything anymore?

Finding Joy...

The church organised a floral workshop yesterday. They had invited an instructor from a floral training school to demonstrate some of the techniques used in floral arrangement. Well, perhaps 'techniques' wasn't the right word to use since he did not really emphasise much on the technical aspects.

He touched on something else instead. He said that in floral arrangement, we should not always be too focused on the little things that we lose out on the big picture altogether. And that we should never get upset over the conditions of the flowers we have either. Simply because we cannot always control the kind of flowers we get. There are times when the flowers can be really beautiful and other times when they just look lackluster.

I guess there had been times when I was too concerned about the condition of the flowers or too focused on the design. In the end, I had somehow forgotten the pleasure that I used to get from simply arranging the flowers. In the midst of all the control, we missed out on something more important. The joy that flowers can bring us. And it is this joy that will be reflected in our arrangements as well.

Is this the same with life too? Do we sometimes get so upset with trivial matters that we allow them to take away our joy in living?

Maybe I'll put up some pics in my Facebook later...=P

Posted on 22 June, 11pm

Dwelling...

For those who didn't know, I just came back from a camp organised by Kia's church. It was held at Sofitel Palm resort in JB from 8 - 11 June.

The theme was on His dwelling place. And as the name suggests, there was quite a bit of free time for us to just slack around. There was also a silent meditation session every morning at 7.30 am, though we (me and my 2 roomies) were quite ashamed to have only made it for 1 session out of 3. I think the guys beat us to it by attending all 3 sessions.

On the final night, the speakers decided to pray for each of us individually. Well actually, they prayed for the married couples first before getting round to us singles.

When they prayed for me, one of the speakers mentioned Moses and his staff. I didn't understand it. Or maybe a part of me just didn't want to...

Posted on 13 June, 11.30 pm

Letters and memories

I was doing some 'spring cleaning' at my grandparents' place this afternoon when I chance upon some old letters. They were letters from some friends that were written way back when I was still in secondary school. Around 8 or 9 years ago?

Reading them really brought back memories and it's amazing that we still kept in touch after so many years. I think you know who you are right? It's funny how some things don't change even though we don't communicate through letters anymore. Maybe it was because of the use of other communication tools such as msn, emails and even Facebook. Yet somehow, I missed those handwritten letters. There was something about them that couldn't be replaced by electronic communication, no matter how advanced it is.

To my dear penpal of 9 years ago, did you still remember that we wrote a song together? And yes, I do keep all your letters =)

Posted on 1 Jun 2008, 9.30 pm

The most beautiful things in the world...

It's such a big world out there. Yet I tend to limit myself to only what I can see around me. I saw this quote today:

The most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen nor touched, but they can be felt with the heart.

How apt this is! And true too...

I wonder how many times we've envied others for having the things that we do not have or can never be, instead of thanking God for what we have and for who we are. Is that just human nature?

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During cg last Friday, we were going through 6 steps for praying in faith and I felt that I had a trouble with step 5 - Accept God's will in faith.

But I guess that if we asked, we should be prepared for the answer. And there are certain things I just have to accept, and trust that it is for the best.

Posted on 26 May, 11 pm.

Don't take offense...

Pastor's wife said something about the above this morning. She was saying that especially for us women, who are more emotional and having deeper feelings, we might be more inclined than men to take offense at the words or behaviours of others towards us. But that's not to say that men do not have emotions; it's just that women are generally more sensitive as compared to men.

Anyway, she went on to say that we should not feel offended so easily but should just let it go. Guess that's true in a sense too. After all, what's the point in habouring grudges and holding on to things that were already past?

Posted on 18 May 2008, 11 p.m.

Friends

I'm beginning to agree with what someone told me some time back. He had said that as we grew older, we'll find it more difficult to establish new and lasting friendships. We might know more people but how many are truly our friends? I've realised that most, if not all, of my good friends are from my school days. But then again, I've only been working for 2 years, so maybe it's still too soon to tell.

Posted on 14 May, 11.30 p.m.

Rebellious stomach

I think my stomach's rebelling. I only had one and a half slice of pizza on Wednesday evening and ended up with diarrhoea on Thursday. And I had a stomach ache this morning even though I did not take any dairy products yesterday.

Should I just go on a diet of plain porridge and veg?

Posted on 12 May, 11 pm

Fake

Perhaps at times it is a blessing in disguise to simply live in oblivion. Like there are certain things I rather not know, because knowing only leaves me feeling disillusioned and even disgusted with their behavious. Ok, maybe disgusted is a little strong. After all, who am I to judge right?

I'm just sick and tired of two-faced people, and all the gossiping. It seemed so easy for them to be so nice in front for that person, and then gossip about her behind her back.

Oh, why do I even bother? It's not as if I didn't know this before. I had hoped for genuine relationships, but most of the time, all I saw was fakeness and masquerades. Who says there are no politics? Maybe that which is not apparent at first will lurk its ugly head in the end.

I should have known better.


Everyone has turned away,
they have together become corrupt;
there is no one who does good,
not even one.

Psalm 53:3


Posted on 8 May 2008 at 1 a.m.

Reap a destiny

Quote from Pastor Jon:

Sow an action, reap a habit
Sow a habit, reap a character
Sow a character, reap a destiny...


Posted on 4 May 2008, 9.45PM