I finally sent the email to Maurice. Perhaps I’ve decided that this is the best way. After all, how many times can I continue to delude myself, to make myself believe that there was something worth staying on for?

Because I was never a part of them.
Because I don’t belong there.
Because I can’t really get along with them anyway

Just take it that I am selfish. I want them to be concerned about me. To really treat me as a friend and not merely as a member of the group.

But that didn’t happen.

You know, there are two ways that people can hurt you. One is by the things that they do and the other is by what they didn’t.

I’m tired. I just gave up. I don’t want to carry on anymore. I don’t need to prove to anyone anything.

I don’t want to push all the blame to them. After all, I was partly at fault too. I didn’t ever open up much with them. I couldn’t.

But it’s not their fault. Some things just can’t be forced. And in their defence, they didn’t know how I had felt in the first place. So perhaps it’s best to make an exit now instead of dragging it on. Just didn’t realise that it has been so difficult to make this decision. Maybe I was still hoping that some things could change.


Jialing, Cheryl, Kris, Ryan, Joel, Jeremy, Ralph
Though you’ll never read my blog, I wish you all the best….
And if you happen to chance upon this entry, now you know how I feel but I guess that would hardly matter now….