Well, I was wrong. I didn't know blogging could cause misunderstandings. I thought it was just a way to express my feelings. Maybe I should think twice before posting anything. Maybe I was just too insensitive. Am I confusing you? Heez, I'm actually referring to my post last thursday (which I've deleted).

I guess I had wrote that entry when I was feeling particularly down and it seemed, at that time, that I wasn't sure if I had made the right choice at the beginning. Yes, there are times when I'd let such thoughts creep into my mind. The feelings of inadequacy. And in comparison with the other groups, I had felt that I had accomplished nothing. This feeling had little to do with the others in the group. If anything, they've been really supportive and encouraging. I shouldn't be comparing with the other groups and take the one that I have for granted. I believed that it was not by chance that we were put together. That what we've gained should not be measured by worldly standards. Now, thinking back, it seemed like there are lessons to be learnt from all these. Above it all, I felt that God has been really gracious through this period of time. He let me fall, but He was always there to help me up. He showed me that all is not lost even when it seemed like there isn't anything left to do anymore. He slowly made me realised that there are certain things I can control and some I just can't. And of course, He let me get to know 2 wonderful girls. Special in their own different ways. I know this sounds cliched, but if I could turn back time, I would still wished for us to be in the same group again.

Yes, you're right. Perhaps I do not need your approval. But what I cherish is our friendship. If I've given you any reason to think otherwise, I'm sorry for that.