"We need to learn to die in order to live" Tuesdays with Morrie
How do I die to these desires and live for God alone? 'Cos only He alone is worth living for. Well, I always told myself that if I went there solely because of the people, I guess I would have stopped going a long time ago. I hate to remind myself every time that things have not changed and perhaps it never will. If something were to happen, it would have a long time ago when I was still a part of it. No, I am not going to be as affected as I was years ago. I didn't know it then, but now I know better. Don't get me wrong. I still have hopes in people, just not in them. But what really is the problem?
History.
Experience.
Friendships that spanned a few generations.
These are not bad.
Yet this familiarity is the one thing that binds and separates. What happened to those outside the circle? Where will they go? It's not about past experiences shared only by a privileged few. It's the present and the future that truly matters. They say they do not judge. But I could see it in their eyes. No matter how much I've changed, they still regard me as the girl I once was. If there is one thing that is difficult to change: it's people's perceptions.
Don't put all the blame on the present leadership; it's the people before them who set the foundation and I was part of it as well. I made a mistake then. Agreeing to take it on before I was prepared for it. No, it wasn't because they believed in my ability. It's because there was no one else. But I guess I was at fault too. I could always say 'no', and I didn't. Yet all these are past now and regretting past actions is not going to do anyone any good. Some things just aren't as important as they were back then. Perhaps there was a chance at that time; it does not exist now.
they cannot hurt me the way they did
for a scar has formed where the wound once was
How do I die to these desires and live for God alone? 'Cos only He alone is worth living for. Well, I always told myself that if I went there solely because of the people, I guess I would have stopped going a long time ago. I hate to remind myself every time that things have not changed and perhaps it never will. If something were to happen, it would have a long time ago when I was still a part of it. No, I am not going to be as affected as I was years ago. I didn't know it then, but now I know better. Don't get me wrong. I still have hopes in people, just not in them. But what really is the problem?
History.
Experience.
Friendships that spanned a few generations.
These are not bad.
Yet this familiarity is the one thing that binds and separates. What happened to those outside the circle? Where will they go? It's not about past experiences shared only by a privileged few. It's the present and the future that truly matters. They say they do not judge. But I could see it in their eyes. No matter how much I've changed, they still regard me as the girl I once was. If there is one thing that is difficult to change: it's people's perceptions.
Don't put all the blame on the present leadership; it's the people before them who set the foundation and I was part of it as well. I made a mistake then. Agreeing to take it on before I was prepared for it. No, it wasn't because they believed in my ability. It's because there was no one else. But I guess I was at fault too. I could always say 'no', and I didn't. Yet all these are past now and regretting past actions is not going to do anyone any good. Some things just aren't as important as they were back then. Perhaps there was a chance at that time; it does not exist now.
they cannot hurt me the way they did
for a scar has formed where the wound once was
