I'm in that pensive mood again. Beginning to think that time is not an accurate indicator of the depth of relationship. Are my expectations really that high? Or did I get it wrong right from the start? I know I've blogged about this before, but I felt like doing this again. Heez...I've been in this group for 2 years and at times I feel that there's no progress at all. It shouldn't be like this should it? Where is the love here? Was it even there in the first place? I recalled what the teacher said during the TED sessions at Meta camp, he said that the opposite of love isn't hatred, it's indifference. Ya, that's the general feeling that I get in that group. Indifference. No matter how hard I try to reach them, it just didn't seemed to work. It takes 2 hands to clap. Well, many hands in this case. I can't do this alone and I am getting tired. I have tried, so many times before. And each time it turned out the same. It feels like ym all over again as the memories come rushing back. I though I could get away from it all but how could I when it's the same people again and again? I hate to just give up and go away but this has to stop some time right? I am not looking for a perfect lg but at least one that cares for each other. Lord, why is it still like this after all these years? 6 months. I'll try my best for these 6 months. If things still don't work out, then I guess I just have to move on. There's no point dragging things further.