I've just returned from a camp and there are so many things in my mind right now. You know, recently, I've realised that from every camp there is something that I brought back and this camp is no different either. Yupz, I liked my CG, I think it's wonderful and the people there are nice as well. The speaker sessions were really insightful, especially the first one and the women's conference. I guessed it's true that we can only find our identity in Christ and no one else. I knew this all along but it's just so difficult to put it into practice. Then again, aren't all things possible in Christ? Honestly speaking, I didn't cry that much during this camp, except during the women's conference.

I think I care too much about what people think of me when all that I should bother with should be about what He thinks of me.

Oh Lord, I do want to be a godly woman and love You the way You love me.

It didn't take me long to realise that only God can love me unconditionally and for who I'm really am. So why is it that I still feel insecure? Don't I have confidence in my relationship with God? Why am I letting the devil mess with my mind? Why am I believing his lies? Oh Lord, how I wished I could be with You now. When the others shared about what Your will is in their lives, I wished I could know it for myself as well. I guess I do have some inclination but I'm not sure if that really is the direction that God wants me to take. I had expected to be transformed in this conference, so why am I feeling this way now?

okie...my exams are finally over. Somehow, I don't really feel anything much. Maybe it's because I've not gotten over the exam mood yet. Oh well, will be going on the ship later. Hope it will be enjoyable. Guess I do need a holiday though what I would really want to do now is just to slack at home. Haiz...I'm going to miss the Singapore Idols finals tonight.